Mid Life crisis at 32!

It's been a while. I guess it takes discipline to write a blog. Either that or time or a good memory. Time is something I have little of and I am still suffering from baby brain so there's little hope for me!

It's been a strange day today. My 4 year old went straight from Nursery to her friends for lunch and to play. I didn't see her until 3 o'clock. A good friend of mine and I are easing each other into the fact that our children will start Reception in Septmeber. Not something new for either of us, but this is her youngest child and would have been mine too. Four more months and I would have had some freedom. I adore my children but after nine years at home I had planned on deciding what to do with my life. Would I start a career or start my own business? The opportunities seemed endless. I could sit and paint canvases all day, not something I'd done since Uni. I could make beautiful cushions or lovely home accessories. Maybe I would train to be a teacher or finally start my Masters. Instead I've got to wait another 4 years. Or do I? Could I not do something and look after a baby? Well she is now 8 months old and won't be a baby forever? But now the problem is I don't know what to do? Many women do all the things I've said with a baby but can I?

Maybe it's time to bite the bullet and commit to an idea and make it happen. Too many choices and no time to spare. I guess I'll have to make time and still do what I planned to do. But what shall I do? A mid-life crisis at 32 does not bode well, I had planned to live longer than 64!